She lit a flame in my heart and let me burn alone

I wrote this for a writing prompt – “A girl love a guy and made a love potion for the guy. The guy fell in love with the girl but the girl lost interest in him. The guy is still heavily under the love potion. Write from the guy’s perspective about how he moves on still being in love with her.”

It’s already done but it will never be inside my heart and mind. It is not fair because everything seemed perfect. For us and for others but sometimes things don’t work the way we want to. We were too much in to each other, that the hole we fell down together is too deep to get out from. Maybe not for her but for me, yes. I want this pain to end. It hurts too much because how can I forget that her face when she laughs and her cute way of getting annoyed. How can I forget a face that I can explain each of her emotions so descriptive in my head? You would say ask you my friends for help. I did and my friends tried to help but they are now strangers too.

Our existence was like water and I tried to catch it with my bare hands. Only to stare at the water dripping through the gaps of my own fingers. Who’s fault was it that water had drip? Maybe it is none of our faults but a fault in the matching of the universe – a fault in our stars. The problem is, the universe rarely makes mistakes. Why did this have to be one of them? I can tell you this though, every single moment I held that water, seemed infinite.

Thus, I stare at you every single day only to walk away with fear… and sadness? that I might love and that you will not. By moving on, will I be blowing off the flame of hope by my own breath? Or will I be blowing off a flame that could have destroyed what it already was? For better or worse that flame will always leave a mark on each other. Some may call it love and others may call it scars.

I doubt if I will ever be worthy enough to be chosen by someone but if you ever think I’m worthy enough to be chosen by you. You need to know that I didn’t choose this path. This path chose me. I have held more guns and swords than flowers and birds and if these scars frighten you, you might as well be better off with a soul without thorns and draws no blood.

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Lately, I have been wondering

I wrote this poem a few years ago and months after we ended our relationship due some crazy unavoidable circumstance which I don’t even know how to explain it. I was going through my poetic profile and this poem make sense now, because now she is happily engaged and I am happy for her as well. What I have been wondering at that time. Now I am know. Right now in my head I am kinda laughing for the dumb fellow I was but…

Lately, I have been wondering.
What kind of person
will be there to take my place.
Your future a man shall embrace.

To protect you, to guide you
through all the problems you never knew.
Thinking back I see a lot of memories
but all that is history.

Those memories are haunting back
can’t run from them like shadows in pitch black.
When our song plays on the radio
it just doesn’t sound the same.

I guess that’s really how it should sound.
It never was the same
because it only created wounds.
Who i am to blame?

If things were just same as it was a year ago
happiness in life would really show
and I would dance with you whenever I had the chance.
but today I am happy that it’s another man holding your hand while you dance.

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The beautiful flame

I love to stare at this beautiful flame.
Bright in its light and warm in its heart.
It could light a room that’s pitch dark.
I can’t take my eyes off this beautiful flame.
The flame that keeps me alive.
It makes life bright.
As the flame dances around
I smile oddly as it dances with spread out wings.

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
but I feel the brightness fading
and its beauty evaporating.

I know one day this strong wax candle
will melt down to the last drop.
It will burn my hand but yet I choose to hold it.
Because holding this beautiful flame is worth the pain.

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
but I’m trying my best keep the flame alive
by covering it with my hand.

I see the flame fight
I see it struggle.
I know it’s strong and kind.
But then again one night I know it’s going to die.
I hope that night comes late and slow.
Because today and tonight I want it to shine as brightly as it could.

http://allpoetry.com/poem/12235730-The-beautiful-flame-by-The-Empath

 

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A midnight thought

The clock ticks away, television channels switched off to give it a rest from all the continuous drama shows and the only sounds you hear are the wind swaying the tree to and fro, random howling of dogs and the crickets. This is a time where the thoughts gush in and out of your mind, so fast that you can’t keep track. Some are of which that happened at home, school, work in the spirit of positives, negatives and neutral. Every little thing that happen from morning till night. You think to your self, if only I could have changed something from what I did early in the morning everything would have been perfect. Maybe if had said this or that, I would have won the argument but yes, where argument is not a matter maybe I could have made a better justification of what I said or made a little more sense than of the idiot I am already.

It’s silly reason to keep repeating the cliché phrase that we all are not perfect which might have been repeated a zillion times but yet we tend to think of these little things (‘aww if that and aww if this). These late night thoughts is what I think makes a human perfect. I don’t know yet why people think this and I am no psychologist but I believe thinking of such things is what actually makes humans perfect and its also a beautiful thing.

10 PAINFULLY OBVIOUS TRUTHS EVERYONE FORGETS TOO SOON! [RE-POST]

10 Painfully Obvious Truths Everyone Forgets Too Soon

This, my friends, is my attempt at helping all of us, myself included, “get it” and “remember it” once and for all…

1. The average human life is relatively short.

We know deep down that life is short, and that death will happen to all of us eventually, and yet we are infinitely surprised when it happens to someone we know. It’s like walking up a flight of stairs with a distracted mind, and misjudging the final step. You expected there to be one more stair than there is, and so you find yourself off balance for a moment, before your mind shifts back to the present moment and how the world really is.

LIVE your life TODAY! Don’t ignore death, but don’t be afraid of it either. Be afraid of a life you never lived because you were too afraid to take action. Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside you while you’re still alive. Be bold. Be courageous. Be scared to death, and then take the next step anyway.

2. You will only ever live the life you create for yourself.

Your life is yours alone. Others can try to persuade you, but they can’t decide for you. They can walk with you, but not in your shoes. So make sure the path you decide to walk aligns with your own intuition and desires, and don’t be scared to switch paths or pave a new one when it makes sense.

Remember, it’s always better to be at the bottom of the ladder you want to climb than the top of the one you don’t. Be productive and patient. And realize that patience is not about waiting, but the ability to keep a good attitude while working hard for what you believe in. This is your life, and it is made up entirely of your choices. May your actions speak louder than your words. May your life preach louder than your lips. May your success be your noise in the end.

And if life only teaches you one thing, let it be that taking a passionate leap is always worth it. Even if you have no idea where you’re going to land, be brave enough to step up to the edge of the unknown, and listen to your heart. (Angel and I discuss this in more detail in the “Passion and Growth” chapter of 1,000 Little Things Happy, Successful People Do Differently.)

3. Being busy does NOT mean being productive.

Busyness isn’t a virtue, nor is it something to respect. Though we all have seasons of crazy schedules, very few of us have a legitimate need to be busy ALL the time. We simply don’t know how to live within our means, prioritize properly, and say no when we should.

Being busy rarely equates to productivity these days. Just take a quick look around. Busy people outnumber productive people by a wide margin. Busy people are rushing all over the place, and running late half of the time. They’re heading to work, conferences, meetings, social engagements, etc. They barely have enough free time for family get-togethers and they rarely get enough sleep. Yet, emails are shooting out of their smart phones like machine gun bullets, and their day planners are jammed to the brim with obligations. Their busy schedule gives them an elevated sense of importance. But it’s all an illusion. They’re like hamsters running on a wheel.

Though being busy can make us feel more alive than anything else for a moment, the sensation is not sustainable long term. We will inevitably, whether tomorrow or on our deathbed, come to wish that we spent less time in the buzz of busyness and more time actually living a purposeful life.

4. Some kind of failure always occurs before success.

Most mistakes are unavoidable. Learn to forgive yourself. It’s not a problem to make them. It’s only a problem if you never learn from them.

If you’re too afraid of failure, you can’t possibly do what needs to be done to be successful. The solution to this problem is making friends with failure. You want to know the difference between a master and a beginner? The master has failed more times than the beginner has even tried. Behind every great piece of art is a thousand failed attempts to make it, but these attempts are simply never shown to us.

Bottom line: Just because it’s not happening now, doesn’t mean it never will. Sometimes things have to go very wrong before they can be right. (Read The Success Principles.)

5. Thinking and doing are two very different things.

Success never comes to look for you while you wait around thinking about it.

You are what you do, not what you say you’ll do. Knowledge is basically useless without action. Good things don’t come to those who wait; they come to those who work on meaningful goals. Ask yourself what’s really important and then have the courage to build your life around your answer.

And remember, if you wait until you feel 100% ready to begin, you’ll likely be waiting the rest of your life.

6. You don’t have to wait for an apology to forgive.

Life gets much easier when you learn to accept all the apologies you never got. The key is to be thankful for every experience – positive or negative. It’s taking a step back and saying, “Thank you for the lesson.” It’s realizing that grudges from the past are a perfect waste of today’s happiness, and that holding one is like letting unwanted company live rent free in your head.

Forgiveness is a promise – one you want to keep. When you forgive someone you are making a promise not to hold the unchangeable past against your present self. It has nothing to do with freeing a criminal of his or her crime, and everything to do with freeing yourself of the burden of being an eternal victim.

7. Some people are simply the wrong match for you.

You will only ever be as great as the people you surround yourself with, so be brave enough to let go of those who keep bringing you down. You shouldn’t force connections with people who constantly make you feel less than amazing.

If someone makes you feel uncomfortable and insecure every time you’re with them, for whatever reason, they’re probably not close friend material. If they make you feel like you can’t be yourself, or if they make you “less than” in any way, don’t pursue a connection with them. If you feel emotionally drained after hanging out with them or get a small hit of anxiety when you are reminded of them, listen to your intuition. There are so many “right people” for you, who energize you and inspire you to be your best self. It makes no sense to force it with people who are the wrong match for you.

8. It’s not other people’s job to love you; it’s yours.

It’s important to be nice to others, but it’s even more important to be nice to yourself. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world. So make sure you don’t start seeing yourself through the eyes of those who don’t value you. Know your worth, even if they don’t.

Today, let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as incomplete as you think you are. Yes, let someone love you despite all of this, and let that someone be YOU. (Read Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It.)

9. What you own is not who YOU are.

Stuff really is just stuff, and it has absolutely no bearing on who you are as a person. Most of us can make do with much less than we think we need. That’s a valuable reminder, especially in a hugely consumer-driven culture that focuses more on material things than meaningful connections and experiences.

You have to create your own culture. Don’t watch TV, don’t read every fashion magazine, and don’t consume too much of the evening news. Find the strength to fill your time with meaningful experiences. The space and time you are occupying at this very moment is LIFE, and if you’re worrying about Kim Kardashian or Lebron James or some other famous face, then you are disempowered. You’re giving your life away to marketing and media trickery, which is created by big companies to ultimately motivate you to want to dress a certain way, look a certain way, and be a certain way. This is tragic, this kind of thinking. It’s all just Hollywood brainwashing. What is real is YOU and your friends and your family, your loves, your highs, your hopes, your plans, your fears, etc.

Too often we’re told that we’re not important, we’re just peripheral to what is. “Get a degree, get a job, get a car, get a house, and keep on getting.” And it’s sad, because someday you’ll wake up and realize you’ve been tricked. And all you’ll want then is to reclaim your mind by getting it out of the hands of the brainwashers who want to turn you into a drone that buys everything that isn’t needed to impress everyone that isn’t important.

10. Everything changes, every second.

Embrace change and realize it happens for a reason. It won’t always be obvious at first, but in the end it will be worth it.

What you have today may become what you had by tomorrow. You never know. Things change, often spontaneously. People and circumstances come and go. Life doesn’t stop for anybody. It moves rapidly and rushes from calm to chaos in a matter of seconds, and happens like this to people every day. It’s likely happening to someone nearby right now.

Sometimes the shortest split second in time changes the direction of our lives. A seemingly innocuous decision rattles our whole world like a meteorite striking Earth. Entire lives have been swiveled and flipped upside down, for better or worse, on the strength of an unpredictable event. And these events are always happening.

However good or bad a situation is now, it will change. That’s the one thing you can count on. So when life is good, enjoy it. Don’t go looking for something better every second. Happiness never comes to those who don’t appreciate what they have while they have it.

Your turn…

What else would you add to this list? What important life lessons do you often forget? Leave a comment below and share your thoughts.

Source: Marc and Angel via The Open Mind

Photo source: Live Learn Evolve –

I’m mad as hell and I’m not going to take this anymore!!!

Recently, I have been feeling quite down. I feel it difficult to do what I want to do normally. It feels like there’s a huge absence of fire in my belly. So, like most I went on YouTube searching for inspiration. Now the thing is I have done this so many times that the average inspirational video don’t work on me so I always have to go in search of videos with that extra bit of spark in it. Which in the end I always came across. This time too I found one, it was some of the greatest speeches ever in movies. I found this quite intriguing in particular. . Link is at the bottom. Check it out. I hope check the link than read because the words written could be wrong in some senses.

“I don’t have to tell you things are bad. Everybody knows things are bad. It’s a depression. Everybody’s out of work or scared of losing their job. The dollar buys a nickel’s worth, banks are going bust, shopkeepers keep a gun under the counter. Punks are running wild in the street and there’s nobody anywhere who seems to know what to do, and there’s no end to it. We know the air is unfit to breathe and our food is unfit to eat, and we sit watching our TV’s while some local newscaster tells us that today we had fifteen homicides and sixty-three violent crimes, as if that’s the way it’s supposed to be. We know things are bad – worse than bad. They’re crazy. It’s like everything everywhere is going crazy, so we don’t go out anymore. We sit in the house, and slowly the world we are living in is getting smaller, and all we say is, ‘Please, at least leave us alone in our living rooms. Let me have my toaster and my TV and my steel-belted radials and I won’t say anything. Just leave us alone.’ Well, I’m not gonna leave you alone. I want you to get mad! I don’t want you to protest. I don’t want you to riot – I don’t want you to write to your congressman because I wouldn’t know what to tell you to write. I don’t know what to do about the depression and the inflation and the Russians and the crime in the street. All I know is that first you’ve got to get mad. You’ve got to say, ‘I’m a HUMAN BEING, God damn it! My life has VALUE!’ So I want you to get up now. I want all of you to get up out of your chairs. I want you to get up right now and go to the window. Open it, and stick your head out, and yell, ‘I’M AS MAD AS HELL, AND I’M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!’ I want you to get up right now, sit up, go to your windows, open them and stick your head out and yell – ‘I’m as mad as hell and I’m not going to take this anymore!’ Things have got to change. But first, you’ve gotta get mad!… You’ve got to say, ‘I’m as mad as hell, and I’m not going to take this anymore!’ Then we’ll figure out what to do about the depression and the inflation and the oil crisis. But first get up out of your chairs, open the window, stick your head out, and yell, and say it: “I’M AS MAD AS HELL, AND I’M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!” 

My favourite quotes on living life

“Sometimes it’s important to work for that pot of gold. But other times it’s essential to take time off and to make sure that your most important decision in the day simply consists of choosing which color to slide down on the rainbow.”  ― Douglas Pagels


“Don’t pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one”  – Bruce Lee


“When writing the story of your life, don’t let anyone else hold the pen” – Harley Davidson


“When life gives you something that makes you feel afraid, that’s when life gives you a chance to be brave.” – Unknown.


“Real love is knowing someone’s weakness and not taking advantage of them. Knowing their flaws and accepting them for who they are” – Unknown


“If you could dream it, you can do it. Always remember that this whole thing was started with a dream and a mouse.” – Walt Disney


Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to passIt’s about learning to dance in the rain.’ – Vivian Greene 


“Life is like a blanket too short. You pull it up and your toes rebel you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night.” ― Marion Howard


“When people are protecting something truly special to them, then they can truly become strong as they can be” – Naruto


“Those who break the rules are scum, but those who abandon their friends are worse than scum.” – Kakashi Hatake


“People live their lives bound by what they accept as correct and true. That’s how they define “reality” but what does it mean to be “correct” or “true”? Merely vague concepts… Their “reality” may all be a mirage. Can we consider them to simply be living in their own world, shaped by their beliefs?” – Uchiha Itachi


“In life one has a choice to take one of two paths: to wait for some special day – or to celebrate each special day.”  ― Rasheed Ogunlaru


“Learn to accept how to embrace the fear of feeling about what it’s like to contemplate what it is to know true pain, because when I had nothing and no once, I always had PAIN.” – PAIN


 

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Look up!

Technology has created a void between people when it comes to exchange of real human emotion. It annoys me every time when someone takes out his/her phone just to check on Facebook, twitter, etc when he/she hangout with friends. It’s just sad and this video is just shows what you are missing. Virtually you may be connected to millions of people around the world but in reality you are just a person alone holding a phone in your hand while others around you is enjoying reality and living life like its suppose to be lived. Full credits to the people behind this the making of this.

 

‘Look Up’ is a lesson taught to us through a love story, in a world where we continue to find ways to make it easier for us to connect with one another, but always results in us spending more time alone.

8 types of friends you will have.

I got this email from my friend stating the type of friends one would have. I personally have at least one that fits in to each of these types. Thought I might share this.

1. A Loyal Best Friend
This is the kind of friend who lets you be a hot mess and knows all of your deepest and darkest secrets, but still loves you all the same.

2. A Fearless Adventurer.
We all need an adventurous friend who will pull us out of our shells and introduce us to new ideas, cultures, philosophies, and activities.

3. A Brutally Honest Confidant.
Friends are supposed to be honest with each other. If you find someone who is brutally honest with you (in a constructive way), then hold on to this person! People like that are hard to come by these days.

4. A Wise Mentor.
We all need a friend who inspires us to be better people without making us feel inadequate. Plus, being around such a person will challenge us to better ourselves every day.

5. A Friend From a Different Culture.
If everyone had a friend from a different culture, the world would be a much better place. Being in a cross-cultural friendship allows you to explore customs, values, and traditions outside of your own culture.

6. A Polar Opposite.
Instead of constantly surrounding yourself with like-minded people, try to break out of your comfort zone and befriend people who hold opposing views. They will help open your eyes to different world views and you’ll learn to accept people who don’t see the world exactly the way you see it.

7. A Friendly Neighbor.
These days, a lot of people don’t know their own neighbors. It’s a shame, because some neighbors can be the nicest and most helpful people ever.

8. A Work Pal.
Your work pal doesn’t have to be your best friend outside of work. They just need to be someone you click with on some level, and if you two hit it off exceptionally well, you can always start hanging out with them outside of the office.

Yes, I am a Naruto Fan

30 Lessons life taught me!

I’ll be turning 18 this year so to celebrate growing older and also courtesy of some self-reflection. I listed out some lessons that life taught me along the way. Also I would like extend my thanks to Zaid and Muzawwir for their input as well.

1. What ever you are going or went through, you are not alone.
2. If you have a plan, you have nothing worry about.
3. If you are planning out an event. Always make notes. Even the little things.
4. Friendship always has its ups and downs. So, don’t make decisions too quickly.
5. Pain can change people. So, don’t be surprised.
6. Don’t judge people. Because there might be tears hiding behind the clown’s face.
7. The best is yet to come.
8. No one remembers the one who gave up.
9. Love your parents no matter what.
10. Whatever happens just smile and accept it. You can’t control fate but you can control how you react to it.
11. Talk to God! He always listens.
12. Time heals most things.
13. One small conversation with a friend. Can sometimes make you forget all life’s problems.
14. Never abandon friends. Your busy schedule won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
15. Believe in miracles.
16. Always remember you are always loved by somebody.
17. Make sacrifices.
18. It’s not important to win any argument. Agree to disagree.
19. Grab as many opportunities as possible. One will lead to another.
20. Give meaning to everything in life.
21. If you really want something to be done. Give a reason. The stronger the reason, the stronger you strive.
22. Learn from mistakes. Both your’s and other’s.
23. Always be prepared.
24. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good. It’s too short to grumble about it.
25. Inspire your self once in a while. The more regularly you bath, the more regularly you smell good.
26. Say NO once in a while.
27. Remember those who helped you.
28. Give without condition. God will smile on you.
29. Take a day off and treat your self. You are a human after all.
30. Last one. You can make a difference or you can just fit in but remember you just can’t do both. Your choice.