She lit a flame in my heart and let me burn alone

I wrote this for a writing prompt – “A girl love a guy and made a love potion for the guy. The guy fell in love with the girl but the girl lost interest in him. The guy is still heavily under the love potion. Write from the guy’s perspective about how he moves on still being in love with her.”

It’s already done but it will never be inside my heart and mind. It is not fair because everything seemed perfect. For us and for others but sometimes things don’t work the way we want to. We were too much in to each other, that the hole we fell down together is too deep to get out from. Maybe not for her but for me, yes. I want this pain to end. It hurts too much because how can I forget that her face when she laughs and her cute way of getting annoyed. How can I forget a face that I can explain each of her emotions so descriptive in my head? You would say ask you my friends for help. I did and my friends tried to help but they are now strangers too.

Our existence was like water and I tried to catch it with my bare hands. Only to stare at the water dripping through the gaps of my own fingers. Who’s fault was it that water had drip? Maybe it is none of our faults but a fault in the matching of the universe – a fault in our stars. The problem is, the universe rarely makes mistakes. Why did this have to be one of them? I can tell you this though, every single moment I held that water, seemed infinite.

Thus, I stare at you every single day only to walk away with fear… and sadness? that I might love and that you will not. By moving on, will I be blowing off the flame of hope by my own breath? Or will I be blowing off a flame that could have destroyed what it already was? For better or worse that flame will always leave a mark on each other. Some may call it love and others may call it scars.

I doubt if I will ever be worthy enough to be chosen by someone but if you ever think I’m worthy enough to be chosen by you. You need to know that I didn’t choose this path. This path chose me. I have held more guns and swords than flowers and birds and if these scars frighten you, you might as well be better off with a soul without thorns and draws no blood.

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The beautiful flame

I love to stare at this beautiful flame.
Bright in its light and warm in its heart.
It could light a room that’s pitch dark.
I can’t take my eyes off this beautiful flame.
The flame that keeps me alive.
It makes life bright.
As the flame dances around
I smile oddly as it dances with spread out wings.

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
but I feel the brightness fading
and its beauty evaporating.

I know one day this strong wax candle
will melt down to the last drop.
It will burn my hand but yet I choose to hold it.
Because holding this beautiful flame is worth the pain.

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
but I’m trying my best keep the flame alive
by covering it with my hand.

I see the flame fight
I see it struggle.
I know it’s strong and kind.
But then again one night I know it’s going to die.
I hope that night comes late and slow.
Because today and tonight I want it to shine as brightly as it could.

http://allpoetry.com/poem/12235730-The-beautiful-flame-by-The-Empath

 

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My favourite quotes on living life

“Sometimes it’s important to work for that pot of gold. But other times it’s essential to take time off and to make sure that your most important decision in the day simply consists of choosing which color to slide down on the rainbow.”  ― Douglas Pagels


“Don’t pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one”  – Bruce Lee


“When writing the story of your life, don’t let anyone else hold the pen” – Harley Davidson


“When life gives you something that makes you feel afraid, that’s when life gives you a chance to be brave.” – Unknown.


“Real love is knowing someone’s weakness and not taking advantage of them. Knowing their flaws and accepting them for who they are” – Unknown


“If you could dream it, you can do it. Always remember that this whole thing was started with a dream and a mouse.” – Walt Disney


Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to passIt’s about learning to dance in the rain.’ – Vivian Greene 


“Life is like a blanket too short. You pull it up and your toes rebel you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night.” ― Marion Howard


“When people are protecting something truly special to them, then they can truly become strong as they can be” – Naruto


“Those who break the rules are scum, but those who abandon their friends are worse than scum.” – Kakashi Hatake


“People live their lives bound by what they accept as correct and true. That’s how they define “reality” but what does it mean to be “correct” or “true”? Merely vague concepts… Their “reality” may all be a mirage. Can we consider them to simply be living in their own world, shaped by their beliefs?” – Uchiha Itachi


“In life one has a choice to take one of two paths: to wait for some special day – or to celebrate each special day.”  ― Rasheed Ogunlaru


“Learn to accept how to embrace the fear of feeling about what it’s like to contemplate what it is to know true pain, because when I had nothing and no once, I always had PAIN.” – PAIN


 

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what happened to your burning desire?

What’s a burning desire? It is the motivation that makes you work, suffer, dance, cry, shout, stand up for what you want and believe that you can achieve your dreams. It’s when someone engages in an activity so much that it becomes what always thinks about,talks about and dreams about. There’s quotation of Martin Luther, “If you have not discovered anything to die for then you are not fit enough to live.” This world needs more people with burning desires. People whose lives would be judged by their actions. Surprisingly, whether you knew it or not, from very young days of your childhood you had experienced these burning desires. When we kids, we wanted to be superheroes, pilots, engineers, poets, writers, princesses, policemen, painters, we wanted to change the world, stand up and be counted, to get attention, climb trees, cross the road, buy candy and eat a lot of ice creams. You know that if children would not get what they want such as the chocolates, ice creams. They would cry! but why ?  because they would do anything to get what they want. I’m not saying to give the children what they want because as we all know that would make them stubborn. Unless if they deserve it of course! What I’m really pointing out is the fact that we ‘had’ those burning desires & asking you where did they go?

All you need is a burning desire.

Let me tell you where I think they got lost and remember things lost can be found. As we grew up, life taught us many things. Bad people got into our lives, disappointments, we got hurt, we fell down, we lost and then we followed the trend that goes by the principle, “we should not think too big, reach too high or love too much.” Some would call it life lessons because of that they stop chasing what they want. But I would take it as an opportunity to prove them wrong and make it a reason to fight for you want. You are meant to shine. You have a purpose, you just need to find it again. Like I said before, things lost can be found. Believe me once you find it, it will become the core of your existence. Thus, you will create your destiny. It get you up at the crack of dawn with fire in belly! Fire burning so bright, a burning desire you can call it.  A desire that will consume you! A desire that you will work hard for! A desire so beautiful and so meaningful. You will change the world and I firmly believe in that! You may want to help the people around. Help your colleagues reach their potential. Help the community. Bring innovative thinking in to the environment around you. All you need is get inside your mind and heart and find that beautiful, meaningful, lost burning desire!

I read about a man who is a lawyer, a leadership expert, motivational speaker, author, social worker. He wants people around the world to reach their potential. That is the whole population. He works day in and day out to try to make this a reality. Extremely crazy? Yes, but an extreme burning desire ? Definitely!

Is he special than you are? No,he just found his cause, his burning desire!

Stop calling names.

Whatever is wrong with you, that becomes your nickname. That can’t be good. If you are fat; “Fatty”. If you are studios; “Nerd”. You wear spectacles; “Four eyes”. “Fish face”. The list can go on because everyone is not perfect. There’s always at least one thing wrong with every individual. All this nicknames got the tendency to destroy every little of your self-esteem. The point is, you are not the only one who has a flaw so don’t get down on yourself. Just take it as you have found your flaws and they haven’t. You found that you are not perfect and you don’t have to.

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A blessing in disguise or….?

Today I got my monthly exams starting. Three subjects, English, Business Studies & Accounts and History. So , as I woke up this morning and getting my self ready for school I suddenly felt my stomach my gurgling and rumbling. It was a another bad stomach. I don’t know if I am to take this as a good thing or bad thing because I get to stay home and not go to school to face any exam that day! 😀
You could call it a blessing in disguise (students point of view :p ) because I really was not ready for the exam!

Like wise I was staying at home I was thinking of people like us living in different parts of the world. Do they have these kinds blessings? Well, I don’t believe they just the same story as mine but still do they?
As every one of us know there are people dying and suffering out there. Struggling to find a sip of water to drink some food to ease their hunger. I could admit these people know much about stomach aches. Sometimes I think I’m guilty of enjoying that I had a stomach ache so that I could stay at home without facing my exams.

Read an article today, “Hunger and malnutrition are in fact the number one risk to the health worldwide — greater than AIDS, malaria and tuberculosis combined.” Ouch….!


25,000 people die every day because of starvation? These people are humans just like us, living with a family; father, mother, brother, sister except that they are starving and on the verge of death. We are lucky that we are not one of them. Well, everyone knows the fact that people suffer from hunger, diseases and other things but are we sensible enough to understand the pain and suffering the people undergo? Every time I hear or see some one suffering I try to imagine what if the kids begging for food in the streets is me ? What would be going through my mind ? Only then I could really feel the pain of it. Most of friends say they feel comfortable talking to me about their problems. It must this reason that you imagine yourself that you are that unfortunate person who is suffering. You know, they don’t really have to suffer. After all these years of developments and other crap all the countries have been doing.  It’s high time to focus on finding a solution to these problems or the least we can do is be part of the solution. There are more than a million organizations around the world that helps to feed them but for one minute we must stop and ask ourselves a very simple thing;  what is role we can play in it? It is our collective responsibility to help them in whatever way we can and not waste  food on our side of the world.Has anyone asked the question why is Africa the most affected continent? ( I’m just going to Google it and find out!) Africa is the most affected continent from hunger in the whole world and one thing we must always remember when we attempt to waste ‘Children in Africa starve while you just waste’

Unscrupulous

Sometimes in life we feel so depressed,
but unlike you, someone somewhere is not so blessed.
Somewhere in Burma a Muslim weeps,
while the rest of the world sleeps.
Somewhere in the west, Muslims are labelled as terrorists,
after the turn over events of the 9/11 twist.
Somewhere in a country a Muslim struggles to follow the Islamic lifestyle,
while its government gleefully smile.
Somewhere a Muslim brother dies in the midst of war
while he has nothing to do with all the deaths galore.

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Some where a poor dad cries,
when he cant help his family to a bowl of rice.
Somewhere, a Muslim mother painfully sighs,
for his child the last time it closed its eyes.
Some where, a man ponders if Muslims are to be blamed on themselves.
After all, these are their countries and their affairs dispersed on the shelves.
Somewhere the hypocrisy and double standard of the super power countries
towards the Muslims is indeed shocking to see.
Somewhere someone in the world believes people are trying to destroy Islamic values and the Muslim *Ummah,
which is against any human law.
Somewhere, someone is praying “Oh lord! Save this Ummah! and save this people”
from this killing needle.
Somewhere in this world some one must see that Muslims in this world are not totally free
which every suffering soul shall sadly agree.
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*Ummah – Community