She lit a flame in my heart and let me burn alone

I wrote this for a writing prompt – “A girl love a guy and made a love potion for the guy. The guy fell in love with the girl but the girl lost interest in him. The guy is still heavily under the love potion. Write from the guy’s perspective about how he moves on still being in love with her.”

It’s already done but it will never be inside my heart and mind. It is not fair because everything seemed perfect. For us and for others but sometimes things don’t work the way we want to. We were too much in to each other, that the hole we fell down together is too deep to get out from. Maybe not for her but for me, yes. I want this pain to end. It hurts too much because how can I forget that her face when she laughs and her cute way of getting annoyed. How can I forget a face that I can explain each of her emotions so descriptive in my head? You would say ask you my friends for help. I did and my friends tried to help but they are now strangers too.

Our existence was like water and I tried to catch it with my bare hands. Only to stare at the water dripping through the gaps of my own fingers. Who’s fault was it that water had drip? Maybe it is none of our faults but a fault in the matching of the universe – a fault in our stars. The problem is, the universe rarely makes mistakes. Why did this have to be one of them? I can tell you this though, every single moment I held that water, seemed infinite.

Thus, I stare at you every single day only to walk away with fear… and sadness? that I might love and that you will not. By moving on, will I be blowing off the flame of hope by my own breath? Or will I be blowing off a flame that could have destroyed what it already was? For better or worse that flame will always leave a mark on each other. Some may call it love and others may call it scars.

I doubt if I will ever be worthy enough to be chosen by someone but if you ever think I’m worthy enough to be chosen by you. You need to know that I didn’t choose this path. This path chose me. I have held more guns and swords than flowers and birds and if these scars frighten you, you might as well be better off with a soul without thorns and draws no blood.

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Lately, I have been wondering

I wrote this poem a few years ago and months after we ended our relationship due some crazy unavoidable circumstance which I don’t even know how to explain it. I was going through my poetic profile and this poem make sense now, because now she is happily engaged and I am happy for her as well. What I have been wondering at that time. Now I am know. Right now in my head I am kinda laughing for the dumb fellow I was but…

Lately, I have been wondering.
What kind of person
will be there to take my place.
Your future a man shall embrace.

To protect you, to guide you
through all the problems you never knew.
Thinking back I see a lot of memories
but all that is history.

Those memories are haunting back
can’t run from them like shadows in pitch black.
When our song plays on the radio
it just doesn’t sound the same.

I guess that’s really how it should sound.
It never was the same
because it only created wounds.
Who i am to blame?

If things were just same as it was a year ago
happiness in life would really show
and I would dance with you whenever I had the chance.
but today I am happy that it’s another man holding your hand while you dance.

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The beautiful flame

I love to stare at this beautiful flame.
Bright in its light and warm in its heart.
It could light a room that’s pitch dark.
I can’t take my eyes off this beautiful flame.
The flame that keeps me alive.
It makes life bright.
As the flame dances around
I smile oddly as it dances with spread out wings.

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
but I feel the brightness fading
and its beauty evaporating.

I know one day this strong wax candle
will melt down to the last drop.
It will burn my hand but yet I choose to hold it.
Because holding this beautiful flame is worth the pain.

I don’t know how
I don’t know why
but I’m trying my best keep the flame alive
by covering it with my hand.

I see the flame fight
I see it struggle.
I know it’s strong and kind.
But then again one night I know it’s going to die.
I hope that night comes late and slow.
Because today and tonight I want it to shine as brightly as it could.

http://allpoetry.com/poem/12235730-The-beautiful-flame-by-The-Empath

 

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Time changes everyone

Its been two years since I took the liberty to sit down for a couple minutes and write something in this blog. *Smirks* I guess life just got the better of me in the last two years. I will be turning 20 next month. So, you could imagine what the last two years of my life have been like. You guessed it, responsibilities, exams, career, love, opportunities, friendships, failures, heartaches and new experiences. Yeh, I guess its just the usual for this season of life. I got lost in my path in life but now as I sit and look back at all the moments that I went through I realize the more I got lost the more I found my self.

Let me tell you what happen in these 2 years. I will make it short as possible. Back then I had one circle of friends. That too a large circle and now I still have a large circle of friends maybe even a bigger circle but there is a difference of what it is now. My current circle consists of many layers. Each layer different to another. Smaller the layer, bigger the impact in my life. You can bet your life on the people who are on the smallest layer. As the layer gets bigger they just become people – people who could help. People who could help but don’t. People you think are your friends but really are just there to use you and the rest are just acquaintances.

Love. *smirks again.* I don’t want to say much of it. The world has read and seen enough. So, I will just let your imagination run wild here. Let me just put this out though, “You don’t stop loving someone. You either always will or never did in the first place.”

I expanded my skill criteria; Photography. I’m not talking of the kind of skill where I got/bought a professional camera and opened up a Facebook page and automatically become a full fledged photographer. No! Heck, I don’t even own a camera. *sigh* but you can check my Instagram account for my pictures I took on my phone! 🙂

Alright, I think that’s enough for the night. I will rant again. Soon. Maybe. Hopefully.

Adios!

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Do what you love or love what you do?

Life is a funny and a complicated thing to succeed in one hit but we all know that in reality you only get one shot, if you miss you might have to wait ever so long maybe a life time. My Shakespeare Drama director’s favorite quote, “All the world is a stage and most of us are desperately under-rehearsed.”  – Seán O’Casey.  True the world is all but a stage, an opportunity to live your life. When Sean O Casey mentioned under rehearsed I hope he meant that most of us don’t take the opportunity the world is giving for us to live. The life we live is what we are going to leave behind on this earth. I hope we all leave something inspiring and not just something rehearsed from the books, fairy tales or  the worst out of them, movies.

We can all let the cat out of the bag and admit that we were once forced by parents, peer groups or mediocracy to pursue things that we don’t like, just to fit in to society and not look like a weirdo. At this particular juncture we forget the fact of why we actually pursue things. Is it, to please our selves and the people who love us or to sacrifice our selves and the people who love us to please society which a majority of people are of whom don’t give a crap about us? Yet, we tend to fall in to mediocracy and force ourselves to love what we do rather than pursue what we love.

To what love what you do, you must find something you love to do.

A midnight thought

The clock ticks away, television channels switched off to give it a rest from all the continuous drama shows and the only sounds you hear are the wind swaying the tree to and fro, random howling of dogs and the crickets. This is a time where the thoughts gush in and out of your mind, so fast that you can’t keep track. Some are of which that happened at home, school, work in the spirit of positives, negatives and neutral. Every little thing that happen from morning till night. You think to your self, if only I could have changed something from what I did early in the morning everything would have been perfect. Maybe if had said this or that, I would have won the argument but yes, where argument is not a matter maybe I could have made a better justification of what I said or made a little more sense than of the idiot I am already.

It’s silly reason to keep repeating the cliché phrase that we all are not perfect which might have been repeated a zillion times but yet we tend to think of these little things (‘aww if that and aww if this). These late night thoughts is what I think makes a human perfect. I don’t know yet why people think this and I am no psychologist but I believe thinking of such things is what actually makes humans perfect and its also a beautiful thing.

A Man Found A Dead Fox In The Street On His Way To Work. When He Returned On The Way Home, He Could Not Believe What He Saw

I read this post at http://www.snowaddiction.org such a beautiful story. Thought you guys might enjoy it as well. Check it out


One man was biking to work when he noticed something tragic on the side of the road. A beautiful little fox was dying. It appeared he had been hit by a car and was struggling to stay alive. This is the biker’s account of the story:

This morning on my bike ride into town I came upon this fox that had just been hit by a car. His eyes were slowy opening and closing, he was shaking out of control and his heart was beating out of his chest. All I wanted to do was help him but I quickly realized there was nothing I could do so I sat down next to him and gave him the warmth and company that I think I would appreciate if I was in that situation. His eyes closed for good, the shaking was down to a minimum and as I rubbed his little head to comfort him, I literally watched his last heart beat. RIP little guy the world will miss you.


The little fox’s heart stopped beating and he took his final breath.
The little fox’s heart stopped beating and he took his final breath. - A Man Found A Dead Fox Lying In The Street. When He Returned Later, He Could Not Believe What He Saw
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Only… 8 hours later, the man returned and discovered something amazing: the fox was alive.
Only… 8 hours later, the man returned and discovered something amazing: the fox was alive. - A Man Found A Dead Fox Lying In The Street. When He Returned Later, He Could Not Believe What He Saw
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Somehow, the little fox found the strength and courage to keep on fighting. The man scooped him up and began searching for a veterinary hospital that could take the fox in. Hopefully the beautiful critter will be able to pull through this traumatic experience. Most hit-and-run incidents don’t end like this.

Share his unbelievable recovery by clicking below. He needs all of the good thoughts and vibes he can get!

Source: Viral Nova

10 PAINFULLY OBVIOUS TRUTHS EVERYONE FORGETS TOO SOON! [RE-POST]

10 Painfully Obvious Truths Everyone Forgets Too Soon

This, my friends, is my attempt at helping all of us, myself included, “get it” and “remember it” once and for all…

1. The average human life is relatively short.

We know deep down that life is short, and that death will happen to all of us eventually, and yet we are infinitely surprised when it happens to someone we know. It’s like walking up a flight of stairs with a distracted mind, and misjudging the final step. You expected there to be one more stair than there is, and so you find yourself off balance for a moment, before your mind shifts back to the present moment and how the world really is.

LIVE your life TODAY! Don’t ignore death, but don’t be afraid of it either. Be afraid of a life you never lived because you were too afraid to take action. Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside you while you’re still alive. Be bold. Be courageous. Be scared to death, and then take the next step anyway.

2. You will only ever live the life you create for yourself.

Your life is yours alone. Others can try to persuade you, but they can’t decide for you. They can walk with you, but not in your shoes. So make sure the path you decide to walk aligns with your own intuition and desires, and don’t be scared to switch paths or pave a new one when it makes sense.

Remember, it’s always better to be at the bottom of the ladder you want to climb than the top of the one you don’t. Be productive and patient. And realize that patience is not about waiting, but the ability to keep a good attitude while working hard for what you believe in. This is your life, and it is made up entirely of your choices. May your actions speak louder than your words. May your life preach louder than your lips. May your success be your noise in the end.

And if life only teaches you one thing, let it be that taking a passionate leap is always worth it. Even if you have no idea where you’re going to land, be brave enough to step up to the edge of the unknown, and listen to your heart. (Angel and I discuss this in more detail in the “Passion and Growth” chapter of 1,000 Little Things Happy, Successful People Do Differently.)

3. Being busy does NOT mean being productive.

Busyness isn’t a virtue, nor is it something to respect. Though we all have seasons of crazy schedules, very few of us have a legitimate need to be busy ALL the time. We simply don’t know how to live within our means, prioritize properly, and say no when we should.

Being busy rarely equates to productivity these days. Just take a quick look around. Busy people outnumber productive people by a wide margin. Busy people are rushing all over the place, and running late half of the time. They’re heading to work, conferences, meetings, social engagements, etc. They barely have enough free time for family get-togethers and they rarely get enough sleep. Yet, emails are shooting out of their smart phones like machine gun bullets, and their day planners are jammed to the brim with obligations. Their busy schedule gives them an elevated sense of importance. But it’s all an illusion. They’re like hamsters running on a wheel.

Though being busy can make us feel more alive than anything else for a moment, the sensation is not sustainable long term. We will inevitably, whether tomorrow or on our deathbed, come to wish that we spent less time in the buzz of busyness and more time actually living a purposeful life.

4. Some kind of failure always occurs before success.

Most mistakes are unavoidable. Learn to forgive yourself. It’s not a problem to make them. It’s only a problem if you never learn from them.

If you’re too afraid of failure, you can’t possibly do what needs to be done to be successful. The solution to this problem is making friends with failure. You want to know the difference between a master and a beginner? The master has failed more times than the beginner has even tried. Behind every great piece of art is a thousand failed attempts to make it, but these attempts are simply never shown to us.

Bottom line: Just because it’s not happening now, doesn’t mean it never will. Sometimes things have to go very wrong before they can be right. (Read The Success Principles.)

5. Thinking and doing are two very different things.

Success never comes to look for you while you wait around thinking about it.

You are what you do, not what you say you’ll do. Knowledge is basically useless without action. Good things don’t come to those who wait; they come to those who work on meaningful goals. Ask yourself what’s really important and then have the courage to build your life around your answer.

And remember, if you wait until you feel 100% ready to begin, you’ll likely be waiting the rest of your life.

6. You don’t have to wait for an apology to forgive.

Life gets much easier when you learn to accept all the apologies you never got. The key is to be thankful for every experience – positive or negative. It’s taking a step back and saying, “Thank you for the lesson.” It’s realizing that grudges from the past are a perfect waste of today’s happiness, and that holding one is like letting unwanted company live rent free in your head.

Forgiveness is a promise – one you want to keep. When you forgive someone you are making a promise not to hold the unchangeable past against your present self. It has nothing to do with freeing a criminal of his or her crime, and everything to do with freeing yourself of the burden of being an eternal victim.

7. Some people are simply the wrong match for you.

You will only ever be as great as the people you surround yourself with, so be brave enough to let go of those who keep bringing you down. You shouldn’t force connections with people who constantly make you feel less than amazing.

If someone makes you feel uncomfortable and insecure every time you’re with them, for whatever reason, they’re probably not close friend material. If they make you feel like you can’t be yourself, or if they make you “less than” in any way, don’t pursue a connection with them. If you feel emotionally drained after hanging out with them or get a small hit of anxiety when you are reminded of them, listen to your intuition. There are so many “right people” for you, who energize you and inspire you to be your best self. It makes no sense to force it with people who are the wrong match for you.

8. It’s not other people’s job to love you; it’s yours.

It’s important to be nice to others, but it’s even more important to be nice to yourself. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world. So make sure you don’t start seeing yourself through the eyes of those who don’t value you. Know your worth, even if they don’t.

Today, let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as incomplete as you think you are. Yes, let someone love you despite all of this, and let that someone be YOU. (Read Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It.)

9. What you own is not who YOU are.

Stuff really is just stuff, and it has absolutely no bearing on who you are as a person. Most of us can make do with much less than we think we need. That’s a valuable reminder, especially in a hugely consumer-driven culture that focuses more on material things than meaningful connections and experiences.

You have to create your own culture. Don’t watch TV, don’t read every fashion magazine, and don’t consume too much of the evening news. Find the strength to fill your time with meaningful experiences. The space and time you are occupying at this very moment is LIFE, and if you’re worrying about Kim Kardashian or Lebron James or some other famous face, then you are disempowered. You’re giving your life away to marketing and media trickery, which is created by big companies to ultimately motivate you to want to dress a certain way, look a certain way, and be a certain way. This is tragic, this kind of thinking. It’s all just Hollywood brainwashing. What is real is YOU and your friends and your family, your loves, your highs, your hopes, your plans, your fears, etc.

Too often we’re told that we’re not important, we’re just peripheral to what is. “Get a degree, get a job, get a car, get a house, and keep on getting.” And it’s sad, because someday you’ll wake up and realize you’ve been tricked. And all you’ll want then is to reclaim your mind by getting it out of the hands of the brainwashers who want to turn you into a drone that buys everything that isn’t needed to impress everyone that isn’t important.

10. Everything changes, every second.

Embrace change and realize it happens for a reason. It won’t always be obvious at first, but in the end it will be worth it.

What you have today may become what you had by tomorrow. You never know. Things change, often spontaneously. People and circumstances come and go. Life doesn’t stop for anybody. It moves rapidly and rushes from calm to chaos in a matter of seconds, and happens like this to people every day. It’s likely happening to someone nearby right now.

Sometimes the shortest split second in time changes the direction of our lives. A seemingly innocuous decision rattles our whole world like a meteorite striking Earth. Entire lives have been swiveled and flipped upside down, for better or worse, on the strength of an unpredictable event. And these events are always happening.

However good or bad a situation is now, it will change. That’s the one thing you can count on. So when life is good, enjoy it. Don’t go looking for something better every second. Happiness never comes to those who don’t appreciate what they have while they have it.

Your turn…

What else would you add to this list? What important life lessons do you often forget? Leave a comment below and share your thoughts.

Source: Marc and Angel via The Open Mind

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